Dear Maverick,

Yesterday was an amazing day. That might have been the first time I was able to wake up with a smile and go to bed with a smile.

Progress I guess. Im just very determined to get back to who I was before we met. An ambitious goal driven individual that had his eyes on success.

-B

Tugging At Me.

Dear Maverick,

This tugs at me every time I think about the bar scene. It’s funny how much time we spent trying to guess the future and then reflecting on how it’s never what you expect.

After reflecting on all that happened I have yet to find proper justification for a friendship with you. Perhaps I cannot overcome the fear. Perhaps it is some grand sign of maturity.
It may be a unique happiness, that which comes without emotional masochism.

However, with that being said I closed my eyes yesterday and sent a prayer oute asking for the sun to fall into your skin and brighten you up today, I hope it worked. I wanted today to remind you that the world is yours to have. That I hope you can walk around Philly w/o fear and without me in the picture. You could be the old you and not think twice about Brandon Gibson. Yes, you are loved by not just one, but by many, and I hope today you were reminded of that.

There are some promises I’ve kept. But the one I will always keep is that I will be your best friend even when you don’t need one. But you hurt me. Both Physically and mentally. I hope that I can quickly glance over this, because I cherish our friendship more then our relationship. That was always the truth in that regards.

-B

You’re Not Ready…Or Are You?

Dear Maverick,

I’m torn between sharing this blog with you or not. Idk if you are ready. It may come off as a gesture or be misinterpreted as a way for me to try to win you back. That’s not true. Im not ready for you. And I’m only writing my feelings for reflection, because a lot of my thoughts and feelings about you are so beautiful that I want to record them just so that if something were to happen to me…you’ll at least know how I truly felt about you.